Don't feel like working...

Well, I guess the title there says it all. I really don't fell like working. This day started off with me not being able to get out of bed. It's dreary outside... why would I want to get up?? To go to my job? I think not. I don't think I look forward to that on a good day.

 

Anyway... I get up, get ready, and leave around 9 because by then the traffic is light. Right? Nope, not today. I absolutely LOVE construction on a fucking Monday morning during rush hour. Who's idea was this? Let's hurt him...

 

All told, it took me about an hour and half of rolling before I finally got to work. It was... awesome. The worst part was when we finally passed the construction area, the traffic STILL didn't pick up. As in, there were no more obstacles, but people were still driving as if there were. Go figure.

 

So, hopefully, then next hour or so will go by and feel like 30 seconds. I hate pretending that I care about this crap anymore.

 

On the social front, things have been a lot better than the last post I made. I don't know what was up with me that night. I have been working hard on being more personable when I go out and starting conversations with more people. I have even seen a few girls since then. Nothing serious...

 

I am tired... meh... oh well... back to work... or something...

Hmph

I have no motivation. There, I said it.

I have had no motivation anywhere lately... work, kung fu, house, <anything else you can think of>. In fact, Christmas is almost here, and well, whatever. I am happy to go and see my family and friends, but Christmas, I think I can do without this year. I feel nothing.

My general feeling these days is "eh". Everything... is "eh". The range of emotion doesn't really seem to be there. Oh, something really good happened? "Eh, that's cool". Oh, did something bad happen? "Eh, that sucks". Eh...

By the way, how in the hell is tomorrow only Tuesday. For the love of god, can't I just be zonked out until Friday? If any of you reading this are hypnotists, please contact me. Here's my request. It's very similar to "Office Space". Now, from the hours of 8am - 5pm everyday, I don't want to know that I am working. By all means, engage the part of the brain needed for the job to do it's thing, but, can we like, at the same time, fool me into thinking that I am doing something that I enjoy all day? Maybe like... kung fu, or um... god, I don't know.. sleeping? Can we make it so that everyday, despite the fact that I have been working, I feel like I just woke up at 5pm? Please? Anyone??

Ah, screw it... I'm going to sleep.

Saturday Morning @ It's A Grind

Alright, well, I wouldn't call it a whole morning, more like 15 minutes. I came here to work on my list some more. I was able to add a few things to it, but it's getting hard as I get past 70 things. I am amazed that I was able to come up with 70! This is a really good exercise. It is really making me think about me and the stuff that I want to do, which well, I haven't really seriously thought about in a long, long time.

I actually have to leave in a few. I am going to Kung Fu today. I don't usually go on Saturdays, but yesterday's class was brutal, and if I sit still in the house all day, I will just get more sore. Maybe some Golden Leopard will do me good.

Later, I am going down to Rand's house with Ryon to watch the Ultimate Fighter season finale. That should be fun.

I have been feeling very blah for the past few days. I need to not get into a situation where I allow myself to sulk in my house by myself. It's very weird for me to have be active in searching for things to do. Most of the time, I end up just kind of doing nothing. I can't let the hole drag me down this time!